Lets Pretend

Well, you know it's real, but you won't admit it. A false reality is your bridge. Why is acceptance so hard? No to be accepted, but to accept. It must be very difficult since not many do it. That's where the false reality comes in. "I cannot accepted because of my own fallacy, but because I am perfect (or so to think I'm perfect) that fallacy does not exist"...
-I cannot do deed X not because I fear it, but because of arbitrary reason Y
-I cannot accept scenario Q not because I do not want to, but because of arbitrary excuse P
-I cannot comply with request Z not because I am physically/emotionally/mentally unable to, but because of abitrary argument K
This is the general situation of many. They cannot simply accept what is either already here and unchangeable or the inevitable. Yes, it is quite simple to make a mistake then cover it up as if nothing happend. Is it admirable? of course not, but it is easy. Could this then be the reason?

Because something is easy, it tends to be done a lot. Not to say that everything easy is done, and everything done is easy. Easy is a relative adjective that is self defined by everyone. It could be very easy for one to go to the store and buy a gallon of milk, or it could be extremely difficult, circumstances withstanding. Denial is not an easy thing, nor is it a hard thing. It can be done with great difficulty, or it can be as simple as eating a grape. Now, covering up a mistake is very easy (assuming it's a simple mistake). The only thing about it is, it is self destructive. Considering the self destructive nature of it, is it truley an easy thing to do?
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Is jumping off a bridge an easy thing to do? Taken only physically, it is verysimple, requiring no more than two basic steps (going to the bridge, jumping). Looking at it from a more logical point of view, the task seems to be much more difficult. It requires much will power and emotional determination to end (or start) something, and there are also many roadblocks in the way.
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When put into perspective, it is clear that coving up and denying a mistake is then a very difficult chore. It only seems easy because of repetition. Doing something bad is worst the first time, but it gets easier every time you do it, and eventually, you become immune, almost desensitized to it. If you cover yourself up once, you may notice the hurt and the burden it is on yourself, but the more and more you do it, it becomes almost natural, second nature. This is not to say that it becomes "easy" per se; it still is very difficult in the sense that it doesn't really fix anything. It only seems simpler to do because you enjoy the immediate results.

Could it be shortsightedness that makes us do this? Perhaps. The immediate net gain usually is outweighed by the eventual net loss, but that doesn't seem to be much a problem. I believe there is a certain self-satisfation factor that adds on to the net gain and makes it outweigh the net loss.
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A man borrow's some money from his friend to use in a casino. He loses all that money and is unable to pay his friend back. Because he is unable to pay back his buddy, they go on bad terms.
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Did the immediate gain outweigh the loss? In this case, it seems that it does not, but then again, it could have. The immediate gain did include much personal satisfaction, and at the time, it may have outweighed the impending loss. Perhaps it was the man's shortsightedness that made him do what he did, or maybe it was all for the immediate gain that he was looking for and nothing more. Perhaps that is what happens when you cover up and deny a mistake. Maybe it's your inability to see future consequences, or maybe it's your willingness to sacrifice something for some person gain that is immediate and much.


Bah, ok I'm done. Sorry if those thoughts were disorganized and mixed, I'm not able to 100% think and function correctly at the time. I thought this was an issue to be addresed at somepoint or another, and now was a good time since I didn't have much else to do.
qEd (kinda)

Ok, Something Here

I'm not going to force upon you anything here, I am simply offering up ideas. This isn't directed toward anyone in particular. PLEASE, Please don't take this as a personal insult. This is just meant to be a general thing sent for everyone. (actually, this will probably just be a elaborated and more organized rant)

Internet Speaks - Why?
Lol.Rofl.Lmao.Jk.__WTF?__
Ok, this just bites the cake. It's easy to see where we're going when you notice that most people need to use abreviations like those to express genuine (or un) feelings. It's not much of a time saver...is it? To type something more specific like "haha" or "hehe" instead of the more "lol" or "rofl". That though is not that bad. Jk? not horrible when used online...I'm sure the difference in time it takes to type kidding instead of jk is so tramendous that it's actually not worth the effort.

The one that really pushes me is the use of the term "u". Instead of typing the two extra letters and typing "you", people will abbreviate and type "u". Not only does it make you look like an idiot, it also is ineffective in many expressions.
Take these two examples -
a) I have something to say to you. I don't like you, I don't want to hear, I don't want to look at you, I don't even want you to be where I was.
b) What does this button do? Do you press it? There isn't a sign here that says anything about what it does. So what do I do?
c) I can't believe you did that! Were you not thinking? Or did you want to be an idiot?

Ok, now rephrased to be more familiar...
A) i got somting to say 2 u. i dont lik u i dont want to here u i dont want 2 look at u i dont even want u 2 b where i was
B) wat dose this buton do? do u prees it? there isnt a sign here tat sais anyting aout wat it does so what do i do?
C) i dont beleve u did tat!!!!!! were u not thinking! or did u want 2 be a idiot!

Which one do you take more seriously? Right. So, why then, do most people choose to write in the 2nd manner? It's pretty well proven that repetiion builds habit and like I just demonstrated, internet speaks is not a good habit, so why the repetion?

When you are trying to have people take you seriously, why do you refuse to let them? When you write in illegible languages, it becomes impossible to read. When you write like an idiot that doesn't know what they are doing, people will think you are one. If people don't take you seriously, why give them another reason to?
When you are trying to make any sort of point, please,make it in a legible, sensible way. Use proper words and spellings. Get your point across, and still save face.


That was more organized than I thought it was going to be, but I don't think it was that good. At least I got what I was trying to get across across.

Anyways, my parent's are in Kzoo today for a court hearing for my aunt. She's suing some company, don't remember who, but my dad is her legal cousel. It's civil court anyways, so no worries. Well, they were gone, but luckily, I was able to find food in the fridge, mainly leftovers from yesterday. Good stuff still.

Big news: I got 105$$ in Best Buy gift certs today. I actually thought I would never see this amount. My mom's friend bought a whole home theater system on my Reward Zone card and boom, tons of points. I really didn't think that this was coming though, and lo and behold, in the mail today, 105$. Damn.

I'll end this here, nothing more to say. Five day weekend, what's wrong? Nothing.
QeD